If there is one thing I learned from this latest slew of auditions it is that I am feeling a sense of “finality” to them. In the sense that if I am not on stage anymore then I am ok with that.
Granted one could argue that I am on a “break” or rather “in between” shows… so it is natural to get into a groove away from theatre… but not so. Normally I would feel that pull of being on stage or having a sense or a need to perform. All that is gone… oddly enough.